-My Best friend is Elissa Jordan Nally, Who just happens to also be my girlfriend I love her so much and she comes before anyone, no matter what.

I've had the short end of the stick since day one. My dad doesn't know how to keep a girlfriend so I've been tossed around a lot, He just got a divorce with my little sister's mother, witch prevents me from seeing her. I suffer from depression & cutting that stems from the loss of my two brothers and my fucked up dysfunctional family.Up until about six months ago my whole word revolved around drugs and getting fucked up. That all changed when I finally met someone who showed me I have so much more potential and that she actually cares about me, That girl was Elissa Jordan. I try to make every day the best it can be. I can be your best friend or your worst enemy. I'm me and I don't change for anyone. I don't tolerate bullies, Especially ones who pick on children with Downsydrome or other disabilities, My oldest brother, Herbert died of complications when he was only 17 years old. Have respect for everyone out there, No single person is the same.

 

I keep getting my hopes up, we’re supposed to hangout then you tell me last minute we can’t. blah. ):

Nothing hurts more than losing you on our anniversary. 

blah. I just wanna make you happy. Just want you to feel the way I do for you. I want you to be with me because you wanna be. ); I love you with all of my heart and then some. Please don’t take my sunshine away, it’s been a bad month but we can make it all better if we just give it some time. I hope you still love me and wanna be with me. ); After every hurricane comes a rainbow. Please baby, we can make it through anything. 

I absolutely hate sleeping alone.

Trying to make things right just seems to make things worse. All I want is to be with her for one night. Blah. Don’t know what to do anymore.